Sunday, October 31, 2004

My Niece

She is growing up fast, now 12 years old, life is passing so fast we don't even realize it. Her new questions are about babies! She is asking how they made! Her friends have given her some clues, but she was so confused, asking her mom if it's true or not and how it is!
I remember I was 3 or 4 years younger than her when I realized how they being made! And I remember when I told my cousins about it, Shabnam was kind of shocked, and Nastaran even cried! I expected Paria to get the idea much earlier, new generations you know! They are always more clever and much more faster on everything. She sounds so different from me though, the way she is with her parents, even with us, no shame about asking these kinds of questions. I wasn't like her at all. I should consider myself old generation!
Her mom had to read her a book, as she describes it's an english book for childern her age, describing the body of male and female and how they change in certain age and so many other things including sex and stuff.
Poor Paria, she found it so hard to believe, even told her mom she thinks it was too soon for her to know, because she is so sad now! It's good to know these things through your parents, she will understand it someday.
She doesn't live here in this city, I am sure when I see her -maybe next month- she has a lot to tell me and I've got to answer maaaaany of her questions. I am in a place of her elder sister and we have a lot in common.
It would be nice having a daughter growing up, she has an understanding mom who will be just like her wise friend, I am sure:)

I miss my brother and his family, wish they lived in our city.

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

the book : My Life

I'm reading the book "My Life" by Bill Clinton and started liking it somehow. His reall name is not Bill and neither is his sure name!
William Jefferson Blythe is the reall name, but since his step father was Mr.Clinton so...

I like it when some scene or text can have such an affect on you that you may think about it even use in your reall life.

In his book he says when he was out of low school, he read a book named "How to Get Control of Your Time and Your Life" and how this book helped him follow his goals.

As he describes the main point of this book was having Long Term Life Goals. So he decided to make a list as below:

-being a good man
-have a good marriage and children
-have good friends
-make a successful political life
-write a great book

And as himself says it's for God to judge if he is a good man! But he could reach the rest of his list, even the last one! At least it's a great story if not a great book!

Do I have long term goals? I better get that book he read! ;)
It's not so late is it? He was my age when he made that list ;)
It's never too late, for anything.

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Men are Better Friends?!

Women:
A wife was not at home for a whole night. So, the very next morning, she tells her husband that she stayed at her girlfriend's apartment over night.
The husband calls 10 of her best girlfriends, and none of them confirms that.

Men:
A husband was not at home for a whole night. So he tells his wife the very next morning, that he stayed at his friend's apartment over night.
So the wife calls 10 of his best friends : 5 of them confirm that he stayed at their apartments that night, and the other 5 are claiming that he still is there with them !

Conclusion:
Men are better friends !!!!

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Never Explain

Never explain, your friends do not need it, and your enemies will not believe you anyway.

Saturday, October 23, 2004

Damavand

Early in the morning - 9 is early on Fridays - this friend of mine who has just come back from his trip - he can't rest, can he?!- woke me up sending this SMS: let's have a plan for the weekend; I was very much in the mood for that, so we started calling friends, we could gather seven people, waking them up and forcing them to get ready till noon! Unfortunately some couldn't join us, the plan was going out of town for lunch, but then we decided to have it at one of my friend's Villa in Damavand, and his aunt also joined us. It was a wonderful day since the weather suddenly changed, there was thunder and lightning ended with a beautiful rain, but at night it got really cold, none of us wanted to leave the warm fire and come back to Tehran.
If Mahnaz had not called her brother in low for picking her up from my house, we did not have to leave Aftab coffee shop without even eating anything:D When she called him for postponding the pick up time, he was already on his way...so...maybe next time.

Thursday, October 21, 2004

And My Theme Song!

At first I was afraid. I was petrified. Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side. But then I spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong and I grew strong and I learned how to get along. And so you’re back from outer space. I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face. I should have changed that stupid lock. I should have made you leave your key if I’d known for just one second you'd be back to bother me.
Go on now go! Walk out the door! Just turn around now because you’re not welcome anymore! Weren’t you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye?! Do you think I’d crumble? Do you think I’d lay down and die? Oh no not I! I will survive! Oh, as long as I know how to love I know I'll stay alive! I’ve got all my life to live! I've got all my love to give! I’ll survive! I will survive!
It took all the strength I had not to fall apart. Kept trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart. And I spent o-so many nights just feeling sorry for myself. I used to cry but now I hold my head up high! And you see me, somebody new. I'm not that chained up little person still in love with you And so you felt like dropping in and just expect me to be free! Well, now I'm saving all my loving for someone who's loving me!
Go on now go! Walk out the door! Just turn around now because you’re not welcome anymore! Weren’t you the one who tried to break me with good-bye?! Do you think I'd crumble? Do you think I'd lay down and die? Oh, no, not I! I will survive! Oh as long as I know how to love I know I'll stay alive! I've got all my life to live! I've got all my love to give! I'll survive! I WILL SURVIVE!

Thanks Texas Gurl, it's also my theme song.

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Shopping

Shopping with Mahnaz, she did lots of shoppings we needed extra hands taking them! Comparing to her, I bought nothing:D

Fortunately requesting for new driver licenace did not take much of my time, since there has been opened an office for this issue near our house. And I had eye check up; they are just fine :) My new licence will be ready in the next 40 days! Isn't it a bit much??!! Is it because we are living in Iran or is it like this everywhere else?!



Tuesday, October 19, 2004

Melina

Finally I met Melina :) My freiend's daughter. She was so cute and tiny, with Sally we played with her a lot, it's kind of a new feeling holding your best friend's daughter for the first time, the friend whom you used to go to school with and have teenage memories.
It's when you realize you've grown up a lot! She was a bit like Mahsa, specially her eyes and I am happy because now someone else also has Mahsa's beautiful eyes :)
With Sally we walked to my home, the way we used to walk as high school girls, reviewing the past memories, it was fun:)

Aha, end of car insurance! That day's accident was not completely an accident YET, as again nothing happened to my car! There was this stupid fat man trying to find a way to pass between the back of my car and another car! And I was going to enter the parking of Safavie Passage, I had to go back a bit, and did not see this fat man - he was so big I wonder why I didn't see him!- so instead of him being compressed by these two cars, the other car was compressed! THESE PRIDES! It was as simple as that! It was when I noticed I have no car insurance for more than 4 months!! shoot!
I had to go with him showing his car for repair, well it costed me a bit, just a bit, which even if I had a car incurance I wouldn't have used it, but it was worth it! noticing the end of my car insurance!!

God, my driver licence time is also over! end of 10 years , it's over since two days ago, and I had no idea! and wow if the accident was AN ACCIDENT - A BIG ONE -what was gonna happen to me??! No car incurance and no driver licence! LUCKY I WAS!

Does this mean I am being warned each time before a real danger? Should I believe in that? believe in LUCK? hmm I should think about it...

Sunday, October 17, 2004

Accident!

No accident for ten whole years, and suddenly two accidents! And this time...shoot!
What is it? I guess I'm gonna die tomorrow!
Something is wrong with you Girl, watch out!

Saturday, October 16, 2004

Weekend

I needed to rest, but two of my friends where gonna have lunch at Taj Mahal, so I joined them, funny when you wait in a queue at a resturant! Yeah that's how it is!

And at night we were guest of my parent's friends, I love this family a lot, we always just laugh! There are so many things to laugh at when we are together, one of their sons -a teenager- was gonna show us a funny file in his computer, suddenly my mom saw some pictures and said she is pretty and he began to show us the model's other pictures, having no idea one of them was not in a very good position, so he just skiped the one, and my mom was like : "hey show me that, what was that? hey ...oh no, YOU don't watch..." and it was just like a bomb! My mom was asking the owner of a picture not to look at it just because it's not a picture a teenager should see!!!! God how many hours we laughed at what she said!!

Poor their daughter, she is a low graduated but can't find any job, I can't imagine not doing anything during the day, it must be so boring for her.

We came home so late that I had to sleep till noon on the next day! Friday I just had a big rest, we had an out of city lunch plan with Mahnaz, but I guess she was asleep too! So none of us called each other, and at night again we had some guests.

And my new friend Shila called :) The new friend from my last trip, we spent about five hours on the plane and just talked, she was also traveling alone, so we became friends.

Hey fast month! iiikh I hate it. People can eat less instead of not eat at all! They smell bad when they don't eat anything, and that's why I hate it. At least they can chew a gum!

An accident early in the morning, this man infront of me suddenly stoped his car when passing a green light! And boom! Lucky I was it wasn't a hard crash, just a tiny little bit scratch, only my salad was poured, and I could not have any salad for lunch anymore:(
Be careful girl!

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

University Pals

Yei we met last night at Shaar Resturant, the University Pals! It was really fun. The majority of people in Shaar were romantic couples, except in one corner was us, a group of exciting happy girls having much to talk about and seems never want to stop and get rest!

One was talking about her ex-boyfriend who happened to has a wife and was going to get divorce...but did not...and the other one was just saying yeah just like my ex!!! And most things happened to one, happened to another one! The story was exactly the same for both, and kind of ended the same for both! These bastard are everywhere I guess!

Finally I had some news from Chippy from her mom, she is not completely settled down yet, still looking for a house, she is asking me to join her, I am having some difficualty choosing what to do, what I am sure of is that I am thinking of leaving Iran, still waiting for the best opportunity: work or study.

Since I am back from my trip I am having strange dreams, all in stress and worry, I never used to have these kinds of dreams, God knows what's have happened to me! Does it mean I am not calm and I just pretend to be? hmm, I don't wanna think about it.

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

Surprizes

Isn't it so amazing seeing someone after so long? Yersterday one of my dad's friends was our guest, he used to come to us at least two days a week, but days went by and for no reason it happened that we had no further news not from him nore from his family for about four years! and suddenly he was with us yesterday, everyone was so surprized and happy, I just didn't know how I was driving, I just wanted to get home asap :)

Well after four years we both had some good news and some bad news for each other, even thought I knew all the bad things that had happened in this time, I was still sruprized of the numbers when my mom was telling them! The numbers of deaths, cancers, divorces, heart attacks, MS... what a life!

What are we after to in this short life of us? When everything goes well we have no idea how hard this life can be, lots of deseases around us, just a tiny little bit of any of them is enough to ruin our life. How many people we know around us who has cancer? MS? young people, young! What are we doing to ourseves? it's been said that those people who have stress, jealousy, worries and all these kinds of stuff are the ones who get cancer or MS...
Are we calm at all? do we not have stress? are we safe then? can we control ourselves to stay calm? can we be pleased with our lives? can we not want more than what we have? can we have no worries?
Let's do it for us! for the ones we love.


Saturday, October 09, 2004

My Journey

First time traveling alone, first time to Europe, a bit worried I was, since I also had not reserved any hotel. The last time I was out of my continent I had my parents with me, a really great support right beside me, this time was quite different. Early in the morning I arrived to Amsterdam airport, hopefully everything went well, there was a tourist information which I could easily get a hotel, city map and also some info about the trains and trams.
Beautiful city it was, not so many cars like Tehran, but many trams, and narrow streets all stone covered, lots of people riding bicycles, great weather – fortunately no rain at all- and buildings with hundreds of windows in each!
It was interesting figuring out about the trains and trams and finding your way through them, as we have no such trams in our city.
Following the map I could find my hotel, the best part was when I found out my mobile works there! I had no idea and it made me so happy hearing my dad's voice from my own mobile and knowing they can call me anytime, I felt safe this way. Even some of my friends called me, they had no idea I was not in Tehran!
It was really a beautiful city and I wish I had more days over there. I even could find some friends there, the very safe friends whom I could trust, I was so lucky, policemen! What an alone female foreigner really needed in Amsterdam was two bodyguards! There were not in their forms but drug dealers knew them and were afraid of them, they said it's a free country for drugs, but not for all kinds, and dealers are not allowed in every part of the city. That I didn't know! Now I have two good friends in Amsterdam 
The next day early in the morning I had a plane to catch, I was joining Vida in Madrid, she was coming from London, I was worried I might lose my plane by not waking up that early, that's why I couldn't sleep very well, I had stress.
Finally I met Vida, we both eagerly needed to see each other, again easily we found a hotel, a very nice one in a very nice place of Madrid, lots of pubs around the hotel and very crowded at nights.
We both had lack of sleep the first day we arrived, so we slept more than 11 hours!!! When fresh, started seeing the city, lots of museums, plazas, nice old buildings, statues, parks…
Nothing very strange about the city, same wide streets that we have in Tehran, only the buildings where different, again lots of windows in each! And lots of flowers people put in their balcony. People looked the same as us, most of them had black hair, same height –in Amsterdam people were so tall – most of them even asked questions in their own language thinking we are Spanish! The bad thing was that most of them didn't speak English, it was a bit hard telling them what we want, we had to learn some Spanish words we used everyday!
The beach was so nice, so crowded, I thought it was gonna rain all the time, instead it was a great weather, even people were swimming and getting tan!
And then came the night we were on the train to Barcelona, just like the time me and Vida went to Goa by train, it's nice having an old friend that you share lots of memories with, this was exactly the same situation, I hope we do it once more
This part of the trip was full of stress, when we arrived to the train station we saw no sign of tourist information! We had to go to the airport and get the info and city map, but unfortunately there was no hotel available, all of the full!!! This was what the lady in information desk told us, all we could do was getting the list of all hotels and get lots of coins to call them ourselves, and make sure ourselves! And we did that! I don't remember how many hotels we called, all I know is that at last one of them had a room! Wow happy we became! We had a place for one night! There was a fair in the town and this was the reason hotels were full.
That night we both suddenly got scared without any reason, it was late at night and there was something strange in our room, we couldn't sleep we were just sitting tight to each other hoping this feeling would go away! That night when I fall asleep I saw Shabnam in my dream…maybe it was her ghost in our room God knows! In my dream she was kept away from us because of her cancer and I was begging her dad to let me see her, and finally I did see her, I hugged her, kissed her, I cried and cried and cried…when I woke up I was feeling very good, because I could hug someone I missed a lot…
The next three days I was alone again, Vida went to Canada, my bosom friend for more than 14 years, we will meet someday soon again, I know it.
Then started my journey again, but this time alone, I was feeling powerful, and at the same time I was beginning to miss my family, my friends, my home! For the first time I missed my home when I was out of the country, this had never happened to me in my previous trips! And that made me figuring out something, that I love my family very much, that I love my real friends, that I should know the price of everything I have in my life, that only being out of the country is not enough, you have to have support, you have to keep your relations, you need people around you. This is the biggest experience ; knowing the price of what you have without losing it.
The last day in Madrid I got to know two Spanish girls, hoping to see them again one day. And on the way back I became friend with Shila, she went to see her aunts and we talked all 4:30 hours on the plane!!
At the airport my parents noticed how excited I was seeing them, as my dad described; I am full of energy now, this trip had given me so much, at the very exact time.

Saturday, October 02, 2004

Here in Europe

It has been great, lots to talk about, will write them when I am back to Iran. I am in a hurry now, still so many places to see.
One day in Amsterdam, then two days in Madrid, and now I am in Barcelona.